Numbed, shocked and dazed,
I stumbled, fell, in foggy haze,
When, why, how many days?
On my soul the loss heavily weighs.
I remember her face, her startling eyes,
Still feel her body, her breathless sighs,
In my mind echoes her passionate cries,
I long for yet fear when that memory dies.
She lays on the stone, rigid and pale,
Her body empty when once so hale,
I shake her and plead but to no avail,
She’s gone from me now like a final exhale.
Time passed on the wind as I knelt there,
Cradling her head, gently feeling her hair,
I told her over and over and once more that I care,
But her answer was silence, the stillness of air.
I remember praying, to the gods I did plead,
“Don’t do this to me I beg, it is her I need,
Help me wake her, please intercede”,
I awaited their answer but they paid me no heed.
A day and a night passed as time fled away,
I wanted so much just to hear her say,
“Don’t leave me here alone, please with me stay”,
Nothing changed, she was unmoved where she lay.
Slowly in my mind realisation dawned,
I would never again see her stretch as she yawned,
Hear her taunts at my antics or my foolishness scorned,
And then I broke, hot tears of despair as I mourned.
That day I made a cairn, erected her tomb,
To protect her from birds who her flesh would consume,
I don’t recall light in my darkness and gloom,
So I left her Dawnbreaker jutting out like a plume.
They say I was once a hero, an Imperial knight,
Honourable, noble, charming and polite,
Now with her passing I am empty, a wight,
And all in my future is blacker than endless night.
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It's a funny thing Lyall. At the time you dredge up those emotions or tap into them just below the su... more
This is melodic and intimate.