I hear a voice deep within
"Will I ever make you happy again?!"
I can't see past the addiction
The power of depression
Turns to the drug of anger and causes deep ascension
A transcendence from man to beast
With no semblance of mercy to say the least,
All it cares about is who it will feast upon.
Another loved one... Afraid... Lost... Gone..
But when it's all over, I feel so hollow and cold
My body feels like it is aging... My mind rotting... old
I lost myself to power... She feels betrayed... She was the cost
I then enter a state of comatose
But I am awake I suppose...
I wake up in the flames of your heart
I enjoy it, but I also feel torn apart...
What am I supposed to feel? What can I do?
To prove to you I will always love you
I kneel and break down, can’t you see?
That I am driven to the brink of insanity
I feel your love and kindness
And it gives me hope and happiness
But I also cannot stop feeling guilty
For causing you so much pain and despair
For causing you so much torture
I’m sorry for being such a failure
But what can you do when
You are not a man but a burden
Tell me what I can do…
To become human to you…