Caylin's Monsters - Ch. 16: The Request

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    Chapter 16: The Request

     

     

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    I ran straight from the Hall of the Dead back to Jorrvaskr.  I needed to find Farkas fast.

     

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    No one was in the main hall when I came in.

     

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    It was late, and I assumed everyone had gone to sleep already.

     

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    So I went down to the lower level to find Farkas.  I just hoped he was there.

     

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    The blood-lust within me was growing stronger every minute.  It was getting harder and harder to resist her honeyed words.  If I didn’t do something quick, I was sure I would lose myself completely.

     

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    I steeled myself at Farkas’ door.  “Please be here,” I thought.

     

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    When I entered the room and saw him lying there, I was both relieved to find him and also afraid to tell him what happened.

     

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    I had been so frightened when he became the wolf, but now, having my own curse, I saw him in a very different light.  I didn’t want to lose his respect or his friendship… “but is it already too late?” I mused.

     

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    “Yes, it is too late,” the voice answered.  “Besides, we don’t really want to tell him anyway, do we?  No… we want something else from him entirely.”

     

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    She was right.  That fire from before was returning.  I could feel my mouth begin to water as I stared at him.  “We’re still so thirsty,” she said.  “Mikael was amazing for sure, but Farkas… now there’s a real man.”  I tried to respond, but the words wouldn’t come.

     

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    “Not to mention that Mikael was a stranger to us.  Farkas on the other hand, he’s a trusted friend.  We know the taste of his life will be so much sweeter on our lips.”  I could feel her smiling at this thought, and I was horrified.

     

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    Against my will, I found myself kneeling beside Farkas.  “Don’t worry, though.  We don’t need to drain him completely,” the voice said reassuringly.  “Like a fine wine, we want to savor it.  Just a small sip for now, we think.  It’ll be just a little prick in his neck.  He probably won’t even feel it.”  That was a lie.  She wouldn’t let me stop until there was nothing left, not one drop.

     

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    It was as if I had lost my will to argue.  I did want Farkas.  The desire was burning in me like before.  I wanted to hear the pounding of his heart, to feel the warmth of his blood running down my chin, to taste the essence of his life on my tongue.

     

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    Every ounce that was left of my humanity was kicking and screaming, but I couldn’t speak a single word against the power of my own blood-lust.  When I had finally given up all hope of resisting, I felt a small shift in my mind, as if she had lost her footing ever so slightly.

     

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    I seized my opportunity and bolted upright away from Farkas.  “Oh gods!  You almost… I almost…”

     

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    I turned away, too afraid to keep looking at him; too afraid of losing myself… too afraid of what I might do.

     

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    I took a deep breath, attempting to calm the fire that was still raging inside me.  “Farkas…” I said in little more than a whisper.  “Are you awake?”

     

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    Farkas stirred at my voice and slowly rose out of bed, but I continued to keep my back turned to him.

     

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    “Caylin?  What’s the matter?” he asked in his gruff voice.  “Is something wrong?”

     

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    “…Yes,” I replied.  “Something terrible has happened, and I need your help.”

     

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    “What is it?” he asked me.  “Does this have to do with Skjor?  He told me he asked you…”

     

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    “No,” I interrupted, my voice still so small.  “Skjor did ask me to meet him tonight, but I was afraid of what he would say, so I never went.”

     

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    I turned around slowly at that point, but I kept my face down.  I was so ashamed of what I had become, and once he saw my face, he would know the truth.  “If it’s not about Skjor, then what’s going on,” Farkas asked patiently.

     

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    “I did something terrible, Farkas,” I said shakily.  I could feel my body start to tremble as I spoke.  “I snuck off to The Bannered Mare early last night to avoid talking to Skjor and…” I didn’t know how to explain it.  How could I put into a few words what had happened in the past several hours?  So I just said it as simply as I could manage, “I killed someone…”  My words were catching in my throat.  “I killed Mikael the bard.”

     

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    If Farkas was surprised or upset, he gave no indication.  As always, he maintained that calm strength I had come to appreciate.  “What happened?  Did he attack you?  Did he try to hurt you?”

     

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    It made it even more painful that Farkas actually gave me the benefit of the doubt, assuming that it was Mikael’s fault.  “No.  You don’t understand.  I wasn’t defending myself… I killed him!” I said as tears began to form in my eyes.  “I… I just killed him, and I need you to…”  I couldn’t seem to say the word I wanted to say.  “I need you to… deal with me.”

     

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    “Caylin, I don’t understand,” Farkas declared, obviously perplexed.  “What actually happened, and what do you mean you want me to deal…”  Before he could finish, I lifted my head, looked him in the eyes, and spoke as plainly as possible.

     

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    “I murdered Mikael the bard in cold blood… and I need you to kill me… tonight.”

     

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    Farkas was speechless, and his silence was deafening.

     

     

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2 Comments   |   Karver the Lorc likes this.
  • Karver the Lorc
    Karver the Lorc   ·  October 24, 2018
    Suicidal indeed. :)
    • Tralient
      Tralient
      Karver the Lorc
      Karver the Lorc
      Karver the Lorc
      Suicidal indeed. :)
        ·  October 24, 2018
      You called it :)  But will Farkas agree to it?  That's the real question.